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udh lama ga post lg :)


kalian harus tau gue udah 7 BULAN LOHHHH!!! hebat ya, setelah ada "traged" itu gue masih survive.. this is cool i think -_--

well yup after that "TRAGEDY" gue jd gabisa percaya sama pacar gue lg, wajar dong?? udh dikhianatin gt coy *oke stop talking about past just hurting me -,-

and you must know it, after that tragedy, we usually fight. don't know what must i do... i always try to be better, but he always think that i'm the problem of the problem *ngerti ga? kalo ga ngerti yaudah -___- hehehehe


sebenernya sih gue bingung ya knp masih aja diterusin.. tp ya namanya juga sayang... ya semoga aja gue sama dia lbh membaik lagi deh ya.. amin amin amin :')


<3 love you so much dear. i never wanna let you gooooo muah muah :'*

mengingat masa lalu lagi dan lagi..

sebenernya sih ga penting juga cuma mau flash back aja...





dulu waktu masih ada yg namanya "GOMES" kita masih sering main bareng2... kumpul bareng2.. ketawa bareng2... serba bareng2 deh...


tapi, setelah masalah demi masalah muncul kita semua kepisah2.. mulai dari LO yg punya masalah sama chairmate gue di kls 9, sampe masalah COWO.. kita semua jd MENCAR...


terus setelah chairmate gue dan temen sd gue memisahkan diri dari kita, kita pun semakin terpecah belah... lo yg lebih milih berdua aja sama pacar lo... dan akhirnya kita tinggal berlima...................



setelah terjadi tragedi demi tragedi, akhirnya ada temen baru lg dan pacar lo bergabung lg sama kita yg akhirnya jd pacar gue *halah rempong...





tapi.......










setelah masuk SMA......

















semuanya jadi berubah berubah berubah dan berubah..................
















cowo gue yg jd ogah2an bareng kita lg......
pada bilang kita udah berbeda......
udah sombong.......
dan lain-lain...............
















kapan sih kita semua bisa kaya dulu lagi??? ngumpul bareng, main bareng, bercanda bareng dan semua2nya serba bareng.........







gue ga ngerti apa yg udah buat kita semua jd kaya gini.... tapi kenangan sama kalian kalian ttp ngelekat dihati gue kok :")












"makasih ya temen2, udah pernah buat hidup gue lebih bermakna.... lebih berwarna..... meskipun sekarang kita dijalan masing2, jgn pernah lupain semua kenangan kita ya.... apa pun dan gimana pun :')"

remember the past

JUST LAUGH AJA KALI YA... ya ampun this is the first time i see your blog again after a long time...after for along time...







WOW... it's surprised me to see your blog again. ahahaha.. actually you're a nice girl. but.. just because your mouth can't speak in the"right" way and your "acting" to get everything you want was so great, make you look bad.. if you're not like tha, i really sure you're a nice girl :)




well our friendship ALL READY BROKE JUST BECAUSE A BOY.. -__- the crazy think that i do.. but yeah it's already happen...hahaha..


well i think already done bout this story..:)

serba salah

ya Allah salah lagi salah lagi!!!
siapa sih yg ngegantungin lo??? ga woy ga!!! siapa juga sih yg udah ga sayang? hah?? eh kalo gue udah ga sayang sama lo juga hari itu juga udah gue putusin, tapi mana?? ga kan?? meski pun sekian orang bilang lebih baik putus, tapi mana???? gue tetep PERTAHANIN LO!!!




meski pun udah disakitin, udah dibohongin sama lo, tapi tetep gue pertahanin hubungan ini.. 5 bulan itu bukan waktu yg bentar loh... gue mikir ribuan kali buat ngancurin semua kenangan yg udah lo kasih CUMA GARA2 MASALAH ini aja..


gue yakin seyakin yakinnya kok, sebenernya lo gamau kaya gt.. tp namanya juga perasaan gabisa dibohongin kan?? iya gue ngerti, GUE NGERTI!!!
tp kenapa lo malah ngangep gue ngegantungin lo sih?? cuma gara2 gue bersikap dingin sama lo?? gue kaya gitu karena BELOM BISA NERIMA SEUTUHNYA, CUMA ITU..............




plis lo ngerti, gimana rasanya jd posisi gue.. itu ga enak, ga enak bgt. kalo ngikutin logika sih, apa masih pantes lo dipertahanin setelah lo nyakitin gue..... tp gue mikir pake perasaan... gue mikir gue udah sayang bgt sama lo kali... gue berusaha minggirin tuh perasaan sakit hati demi pertahanin hubungan kita. plis lo ngerti.



gue gamau putus krn gue tau setiap orang pasti pernah gbuat salah, begitu juga dengan gue.. gue berusaha maklumi kok :')

Listen - Glee cast

LIsten - Glee cast

[Verse 1:]
Listen
To the song here in my heart
A melody I start but can't complete
Listen
To the sound from deep within
It's only beginning to find release

[Pre - Chorus 1:]
Oh the time has come
For my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own all 'cause you won't listen

[CHORUS:]
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried to say what's on my mind
You should have known
Oh now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've got to find my own

[Verse 2:]
You should have listened
[ Lyrics found on http://www.metrolyrics.com ]

There is someone here inside
Someone I thought had died so long ago

[Pre - Chorus 2:]
Oh I'm screaming out
For my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside or worked
into your own all 'cause you won't listen

[CHORUS]

[Bridge:]
I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't
If you won't

[CHORUS 2:]
Listen
To the song here in my heart
A melody I start but I will complete
Oh now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me
But now I've got to find my own
My own...

:')

TERNYATA KECURIGAAN GUE SELAMA INI UDAH KEBUKTI... YAH..... FEELING GUE BENER LG... "YOUR LOVE ONLY FOR A MOMENT, NOT FOREVER"


SEDIH.......





KECEWA.......





SAKIT HATI......







UDAH KECAMPUR JADI SATU... GUE GA TAU HARUS NGELAKUIN APA.. GUE GATAU HARUS GMN SAMA LO.. GUE GA TAU GA TAU DAN GA TAU.... GUE TERLALU SAYANG SAMA LO.... GUE TERLALU MIKIRIN PERASAAN LO, SAMPE2 GUE GA MIKIRIN PERASAAN GUE SENDIRI YG JELAS2 UDAH LO SAKITIN.... CUMA BISA DIPENDEM PENDEM DAN PENDEM....









DIK, GUE SAYANG SAMA LO.. KAPAN SIH LO HARGAIN PERASAAN GUE... KAPAN SIH SEMUA PENGORBANAN GUE BUAT LO LO HARGAIN?? GUE GA MINTA BALESAN KOK.. GUE CUMA MAU LO MENGHARGAIN PERASAAN GUE SEBAGAI CEWE LO.. GA LEBIH.... APA GA BISA??? HAH??? :'(




SEKARANG GUE JD NGERTI PERASAAN "SESEORANG"..........
THANKS BGT, LO UDAH JD PELAJARAN BUAT GUE. SEMOGA AJA GUE BISA SURVIVE... :')

KECEWA

GUE GA TAU HARUS NGUNGKAPIN GIMANA LG. GUE KECEWA. KECEWA BANGET BANGET SAMA LO. LO COWO YG GUE SAYANG, COWO YG GUE BELA DI DEPAN BANYAK ORANG, COWO YG BENER2 GUE PERCAYA, SEKARANG MALAH NGECEWAIN GUE!!!!!!!!!!


GUE GA NYANGKA YA LO BAKAL LAKUIN HAL KAYA GT........... YA GUE TAU EMG GA SEPANTESNYA GUE BUKA PRIVACY LO, TP APA??? KALO GUE GA NGELAKUIN ITU GUE GA AKAN PERNAH TAU KEBOHONGAN LO.!!!


KALO BOSEN SAMA GUE BILANG, UDAH GA SAYANG BILANG, UDAH ADA YG BARU BILANG, JANGAN MAIN BELAKANG GINI, NYAKITIN HATI...


UDAHLAH, SEKEDAR CUKUP TAU AJA GUE SAMA LO SEKARANG :')
MAKASIH BGT UDAH BUAT GUE SAKIT.. GUE HERAN, KENAPA GUE SELALU DI BOHONGIN SAMA COWO GUE?? DULU MANTAN GUE KAYA GINI JUGA, SEKARANG LO..
PADAHAL GUE BERHARAP LEBIH SAMA LO. GUE PIKIR LO LAIN... LO BEDA... TERNYATA GUE SALAH..
UDAH LAH CUKUP SAKIT GUE.. MAKASIH BANGET2 DARI GUE BUAT LO. :')

abaout deactive...

sebenernya sih sepele banget gue deactive account....



tapi dari pada sakit hati liat status2 lo yg bikin gue galau atau nyesek sendiri, mending deactive account deh. ga bakal su'uzon, ga bakal galau, ga bakal nyesek, ye gak?? HAHAHA -,-


gar2 statusnya yg ga jelas, gue sampe berpikir kalo lo udah lupain gue dan suka sama cewe lain. hahaha. sinting bin sinting...... gamau curiga, tp dibuat curiga... hedeh maunya gue apa sih. mau percaya sama lo, tapi tetep aja curiga





YAUDAH LAH

everything has changed

oke just wanna share........

everything has changed....


everything has changed changed and changed...........


you already changed..........



you already changed.... and changed... and changed.........


you're different now.............



and i don't know why you are changing like that....



i miss the old you.........


kenapa sih lo mesti berubah kaya gini? ngeselin tau ga! lo aneh, aneh dan aneh!!!

this world is getting crazy!!!!!

gue ga tau apa yg udah buat lo jadi aneh gini, tp sumpah ya dunia ini makin freak aja tau ga!!!!!


pertama, keadaan lo yg dari hari ke hari makin aneh itu buat gue jd bingung!
kedua, keadaan si "tuan jangkung" yg dateng lg ke kehidupan gue jadi buat gue sering galau, haloooo kalian para cowo-cowo, bisa ga sih berhenti bersikap aneh! gue capek ya ngadepin kalian berdua yg aneh ga ilang2 tau ga!!

bisa ga sih kalian bersikap normal aja??? yg satu berhenti jd sok misterius deh, yg satu lg berhenti kek dateng pergi dateng pergi kaya setan. lo berdua lama-lama bisa bikin gue gila tau ga!! please ya tuan jangkung, jgn deket sama gue lg, kalo pun deket jgn yg aneh-aneh deh ya. jgn jd sok perhatian atau apalah, malah jd salah pemikiran terus gueeeeee... dan buat 13 please ya lo juga jgn berubah, dengan perubahan sikap lo, itu bisa buat gue jd bingungggggggggg... please jd lo yg dulu aja ya??? jd cowo gue yg dulu lagi.. jangan kaya gini. please...





THIS WORLD IS GETTING CRAZY YOU KNOW HUH -,-

Against All Odds - Westlife ft Mariah Carey

How can you just walk away from me
When all I can do is watch you leave
'Cause we shared the laughter and the pain
And even shared the tears
You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now
'Cause there's just an empty space.
There's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face

So take a look at me now
When there's just an empty space
And you're coming back to me is against all odds
And that's what I've got to face

Mark
I wish I could just make you turn around
Turn around to see me cry
There's so much I need to say to you
So many reasons why
You're the only one who really knew me at all

Mariah (& Westlife):
So take a look at me now.
There's just an empty space
There's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face

So take a look at me now
'Cause there's just an empty space
But to wait for you is all I can do
And that's what I've got to face

Take a good look at me now
'Cause I'll still be standing here
And you're coming back to me
Is against all odds
It's the chance I've gotta take
(Gotta take)
(Gotta take)
Hey yeah

Whoa.
Take a look at me now

about my friendship :)

and now, i wanna tell you about my friendship :)))



actually, i've got many best best best best friend in my junior high school, but only a few of them can understand me inside and outside... let me intruduce my best friend...



first
Audi nur aqmarina ramadhani..

she is my best friend since we met at seven grade.. she is very funny person, and i guess already silly ._.V but, she can understand me, about everything.. everything in me.. about my attitude, about my family, and everything, cause that i love her so much <3 and you must know, she always beside me when i'm down or up :) <3 you guys :* and this is her ...

and next bestfriend i ever had...




Amalia Ayu Farhana S..

well i think she is the smartest bestfriend i ever had :) well, she's got beautiful faces.. don't you think she is a perfect girl?? ya, i guess, she is absolutly PERFECT! and sure, she can understand me, control my emotion, and can make me feel better after i share about everything to her, thank you amel <3 Amalia Ayu Farhana S picture...

next..


Alif Satrio W

he is my bestfriend too... love to playing badminton, just like me, and he has got FUNNY VOICES WHEN HE LAUGH, hahaha, seriously, if me and audi heard him LAUGH, we LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH and LAUGH, and we can't stop to laugh, hahahaha... amel's boyfriends, and they are the best couple i ever see :)


Alif Satrio W picture..

and for this situation, next is..




Fajar Dika Widyanto..

he is my bestfriend and my boyfriend too... and you must know it, he's got many talent!! got beautiful voices.. can play badminton like an athelet, and many more talent, and i'm proud to be his girlfriend :* well he is a good bestfriend too.. <3 you ya dikaa :** Fajar Dika W picture..

well, this is it.. bout my besties... <3 you guys :**

about my relationship :)

just wanna share about my relationship :)





i already taken since 13 march 2011.. and locked by fajar dika widyanto :* <3 actually he is my bestfriend before.. and i love him since i saw him, hohoho.. but yaaaaaa, we already together now... may be god knows the best time to make me together forever, hope :* and i want to show you my dolly from my lovely

and now, i wanna show you my picture with my boy :*





first...

seconddd...

third...

and the last...

well just it, i wanna tell you, just hoping can be longlasting with him, amin
<3 Fajar Dika Widyanto <3

today -_-

you must know it, hari ini ga enak banget...



sebenernya sih hari ini having fun aja, tp gara2 td pas pembagian nila un lama bgt jd ngebetein -_______________- lagi lama banget, ngerumpi mulu sih walas gue ya ampun, jd esmosi gue.. udah gt gue pake kambuh lg sakit perutnya, kan ngeselin -,- untung aja td ada pacarku yg nolongin, hohohohoho..... thank you so much ya dika <3



oh ya, bentar lg ga kerasa jd anak SMA :3


kira-kira gue jd anak SMA mana ya??? kira-kira gue masih bareng temen-temen gue ga ya??? aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah ga pengen bgt pisah sama temen-temen :( gue juga pengeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen banget satu sekolah lg sama pacar :3 ya ampun semoga aja gue dapetin SMA yg terbaik deh ya, AMINNNNNNNNNNNNNNN




okay, just it i wanna share... <3 you dika, makasih banget td kamu udah nolongin aku, buat audi juga makasih udah jagain gueeee <3 sayang kalian bgt :*