new story

udh lama ga post lg :)


kalian harus tau gue udah 7 BULAN LOHHHH!!! hebat ya, setelah ada "traged" itu gue masih survive.. this is cool i think -_--

well yup after that "TRAGEDY" gue jd gabisa percaya sama pacar gue lg, wajar dong?? udh dikhianatin gt coy *oke stop talking about past just hurting me -,-

and you must know it, after that tragedy, we usually fight. don't know what must i do... i always try to be better, but he always think that i'm the problem of the problem *ngerti ga? kalo ga ngerti yaudah -___- hehehehe


sebenernya sih gue bingung ya knp masih aja diterusin.. tp ya namanya juga sayang... ya semoga aja gue sama dia lbh membaik lagi deh ya.. amin amin amin :')


<3 love you so much dear. i never wanna let you gooooo muah muah :'*

mengingat masa lalu lagi dan lagi..

sebenernya sih ga penting juga cuma mau flash back aja...





dulu waktu masih ada yg namanya "GOMES" kita masih sering main bareng2... kumpul bareng2.. ketawa bareng2... serba bareng2 deh...


tapi, setelah masalah demi masalah muncul kita semua kepisah2.. mulai dari LO yg punya masalah sama chairmate gue di kls 9, sampe masalah COWO.. kita semua jd MENCAR...


terus setelah chairmate gue dan temen sd gue memisahkan diri dari kita, kita pun semakin terpecah belah... lo yg lebih milih berdua aja sama pacar lo... dan akhirnya kita tinggal berlima...................



setelah terjadi tragedi demi tragedi, akhirnya ada temen baru lg dan pacar lo bergabung lg sama kita yg akhirnya jd pacar gue *halah rempong...





tapi.......










setelah masuk SMA......

















semuanya jadi berubah berubah berubah dan berubah..................
















cowo gue yg jd ogah2an bareng kita lg......
pada bilang kita udah berbeda......
udah sombong.......
dan lain-lain...............
















kapan sih kita semua bisa kaya dulu lagi??? ngumpul bareng, main bareng, bercanda bareng dan semua2nya serba bareng.........







gue ga ngerti apa yg udah buat kita semua jd kaya gini.... tapi kenangan sama kalian kalian ttp ngelekat dihati gue kok :")












"makasih ya temen2, udah pernah buat hidup gue lebih bermakna.... lebih berwarna..... meskipun sekarang kita dijalan masing2, jgn pernah lupain semua kenangan kita ya.... apa pun dan gimana pun :')"

remember the past

JUST LAUGH AJA KALI YA... ya ampun this is the first time i see your blog again after a long time...after for along time...







WOW... it's surprised me to see your blog again. ahahaha.. actually you're a nice girl. but.. just because your mouth can't speak in the"right" way and your "acting" to get everything you want was so great, make you look bad.. if you're not like tha, i really sure you're a nice girl :)




well our friendship ALL READY BROKE JUST BECAUSE A BOY.. -__- the crazy think that i do.. but yeah it's already happen...hahaha..


well i think already done bout this story..:)

serba salah

ya Allah salah lagi salah lagi!!!
siapa sih yg ngegantungin lo??? ga woy ga!!! siapa juga sih yg udah ga sayang? hah?? eh kalo gue udah ga sayang sama lo juga hari itu juga udah gue putusin, tapi mana?? ga kan?? meski pun sekian orang bilang lebih baik putus, tapi mana???? gue tetep PERTAHANIN LO!!!




meski pun udah disakitin, udah dibohongin sama lo, tapi tetep gue pertahanin hubungan ini.. 5 bulan itu bukan waktu yg bentar loh... gue mikir ribuan kali buat ngancurin semua kenangan yg udah lo kasih CUMA GARA2 MASALAH ini aja..


gue yakin seyakin yakinnya kok, sebenernya lo gamau kaya gt.. tp namanya juga perasaan gabisa dibohongin kan?? iya gue ngerti, GUE NGERTI!!!
tp kenapa lo malah ngangep gue ngegantungin lo sih?? cuma gara2 gue bersikap dingin sama lo?? gue kaya gitu karena BELOM BISA NERIMA SEUTUHNYA, CUMA ITU..............




plis lo ngerti, gimana rasanya jd posisi gue.. itu ga enak, ga enak bgt. kalo ngikutin logika sih, apa masih pantes lo dipertahanin setelah lo nyakitin gue..... tp gue mikir pake perasaan... gue mikir gue udah sayang bgt sama lo kali... gue berusaha minggirin tuh perasaan sakit hati demi pertahanin hubungan kita. plis lo ngerti.



gue gamau putus krn gue tau setiap orang pasti pernah gbuat salah, begitu juga dengan gue.. gue berusaha maklumi kok :')

Listen - Glee cast

LIsten - Glee cast

[Verse 1:]
Listen
To the song here in my heart
A melody I start but can't complete
Listen
To the sound from deep within
It's only beginning to find release

[Pre - Chorus 1:]
Oh the time has come
For my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own all 'cause you won't listen

[CHORUS:]
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried to say what's on my mind
You should have known
Oh now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've got to find my own

[Verse 2:]
You should have listened
[ Lyrics found on http://www.metrolyrics.com ]

There is someone here inside
Someone I thought had died so long ago

[Pre - Chorus 2:]
Oh I'm screaming out
For my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside or worked
into your own all 'cause you won't listen

[CHORUS]

[Bridge:]
I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't
If you won't

[CHORUS 2:]
Listen
To the song here in my heart
A melody I start but I will complete
Oh now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me
But now I've got to find my own
My own...

:')

TERNYATA KECURIGAAN GUE SELAMA INI UDAH KEBUKTI... YAH..... FEELING GUE BENER LG... "YOUR LOVE ONLY FOR A MOMENT, NOT FOREVER"


SEDIH.......





KECEWA.......





SAKIT HATI......







UDAH KECAMPUR JADI SATU... GUE GA TAU HARUS NGELAKUIN APA.. GUE GATAU HARUS GMN SAMA LO.. GUE GA TAU GA TAU DAN GA TAU.... GUE TERLALU SAYANG SAMA LO.... GUE TERLALU MIKIRIN PERASAAN LO, SAMPE2 GUE GA MIKIRIN PERASAAN GUE SENDIRI YG JELAS2 UDAH LO SAKITIN.... CUMA BISA DIPENDEM PENDEM DAN PENDEM....









DIK, GUE SAYANG SAMA LO.. KAPAN SIH LO HARGAIN PERASAAN GUE... KAPAN SIH SEMUA PENGORBANAN GUE BUAT LO LO HARGAIN?? GUE GA MINTA BALESAN KOK.. GUE CUMA MAU LO MENGHARGAIN PERASAAN GUE SEBAGAI CEWE LO.. GA LEBIH.... APA GA BISA??? HAH??? :'(




SEKARANG GUE JD NGERTI PERASAAN "SESEORANG"..........
THANKS BGT, LO UDAH JD PELAJARAN BUAT GUE. SEMOGA AJA GUE BISA SURVIVE... :')

KECEWA

GUE GA TAU HARUS NGUNGKAPIN GIMANA LG. GUE KECEWA. KECEWA BANGET BANGET SAMA LO. LO COWO YG GUE SAYANG, COWO YG GUE BELA DI DEPAN BANYAK ORANG, COWO YG BENER2 GUE PERCAYA, SEKARANG MALAH NGECEWAIN GUE!!!!!!!!!!


GUE GA NYANGKA YA LO BAKAL LAKUIN HAL KAYA GT........... YA GUE TAU EMG GA SEPANTESNYA GUE BUKA PRIVACY LO, TP APA??? KALO GUE GA NGELAKUIN ITU GUE GA AKAN PERNAH TAU KEBOHONGAN LO.!!!


KALO BOSEN SAMA GUE BILANG, UDAH GA SAYANG BILANG, UDAH ADA YG BARU BILANG, JANGAN MAIN BELAKANG GINI, NYAKITIN HATI...


UDAHLAH, SEKEDAR CUKUP TAU AJA GUE SAMA LO SEKARANG :')
MAKASIH BGT UDAH BUAT GUE SAKIT.. GUE HERAN, KENAPA GUE SELALU DI BOHONGIN SAMA COWO GUE?? DULU MANTAN GUE KAYA GINI JUGA, SEKARANG LO..
PADAHAL GUE BERHARAP LEBIH SAMA LO. GUE PIKIR LO LAIN... LO BEDA... TERNYATA GUE SALAH..
UDAH LAH CUKUP SAKIT GUE.. MAKASIH BANGET2 DARI GUE BUAT LO. :')